When Winter comes, things tend to get cold.

So, since I still haven't bought a new lens, this is a throwback!

So I'm deciding to make my comeback. I don't even know if I can call it that, but I'm at a loss of words.
I'm still learning how illogical life can be. Sure, there are the millions of people who talk out of their, hmm..let's go with "behinds" and say they know why life is the way it is. To be honest though, NO ONE KNOWS. It would sure be easy if we all knew, but I guess that's the point. Life's a challenge, it's going to take us our whole lifetimes to decipher it. We just need to live and learn along the way.
Lately, life is the definition of bipolar. One moment I'm living a dream and guess what! The next moment is a total nightmare. It kills me inside to know that everything that's good comes to an end. I'm determined to find a way to preserve goodness though. (I'm still working at it!)
I've been so M.I.A lately because I've just been so busy, trying to make myself the best I can be. Sadly, the more I try, the worse I become. Another mystery I'm stuck figuring out.
The week before the past one was probably the best week in my life. I got into my school, with a scholarship. The Jet's won! And a myriad of other phenomenal things occurred.
Then came Monday. It just spun out of control. The stress, the tears, the fights. I don't understand it. How one moment, I could be in bliss with millions of smiles and loving everyone. Then, countless tears falls and I feel beyond alone.

That's my point. You never know. You never know what the future moment, day, week, month, year holds. We need to enjoy every moment of the times we smile. We have to be conscious of when we're happy, so we enjoy it to the fullest. I know that I look back on the people I used to have around me and now they're gone. I wish I enjoyed every moment with them. I look back on the times when I went places with a miserable attitude and didn't enjoy myself and I wish I had. We have to cherish the moments when things are perfect so we have enough happiness left in us for when things get  a little rocky. A person said to me the other day, "You have to go places with an open mind, do things with an open mind, or you'll just be miserable. If you go into things knowing you have a chance to enjoy yourself, than you will. It's all about your mind and your thoughts. Nothing else should matter." He was right. That week I kept that philosophy and then it slowly faded away. Time to bring it back. I'm prepared to take on the world again. Another Monday is coming soon, a new start. I want to give a sincere thank you to the people who were there with me in the past week, it was definitely a bad one. Not the worst, I'm still alive and healthy and didn't lose anyone and I'm truly thankful, but it was draining. They helped me to see things in a different light and I love them all to death.

One more thing, I'm sick and tired of getting down on myself for my mistakes. I learn from every single one of my mistakes, but then besides from getting down on myself, I have disappointment from other people. I'm a strange person, when things don't go right and people aren't proud of me, I feel like I'm wasting away my life. I'm not! I have a whole future ahead and so many things going right. When I fall, all i have to do is get up. It's not worth staying down. So, to all those who feel like I don't have the potential in me, or that I'm blowing my potential: Please, you don't even know the half of me!

I love all my occasional readers and will continue to write, even though no one really reads. This is where I truly show my colors.

“There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work, and learning from failure.”- Colin Powell

Let's all stop fearing failure and when we do fail, learn from it. When you're at the bottom, the only place you can go is to the top. Seriously, as I said, when you fall, DON'T STAY DOWN!

Oh music time, check out this song if you're in to Rock/Alternative/Country/Folk.. I've been loving it!  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCPH3dPQkIc
 And she has a gorgeous voice! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ByOxsH-N5PQ
She is absolutely amazing, beautiful lyrics(excuse her language though) helped me out tremendously this week http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocDlOD1Hw9k
One last one! Coolest video ever. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rYEDA3JcQqw

May everyone's week be better than the last,
Isabelle

So the sad saga continues..

So I'm probably the worst person on the face of this planet with consistency and time management. Honestly, I'm the award winner for that category of failure. These past few weeks where I have been missing in action, (I'm not even completely back yet) have been a roller coasters of ups and downs! Positivity and the people around me are responsible for pulling me out when the water gets too high. So, to whoever may read, I'm deeply sorry! Besides, I don't even have a camera to take pictures. It's below freezing here in New York and not only has my body been taken over by constant goosebumps from the brisk wind, but my mind has been malfunctioning as well. I pray that everything will settle down again and my ever present joy of writing will be re-instilled in me! For now, I have to stop and get back to a grueling science project. Wish me luck, just as I wish you luck. I hope January has been a good start to a new year for everyone.

"In order to succeed you must fail, so that you know what not to do the next time."
Anthony J. D'Angelo 

With much care and the fact that I have not forgotten,
Isabelle

Changing, just as the year did.

"It don't really matter just where you're from;

All that really matters is where you're going"

~Kid Cudi
So, all the adults not diggin' the rap of the current age, I see where you're coming from, especially on all the mainstream garbage. Deep down though, these men have a way with words. We definitely have to dig a little deeper though.


Oh and yeah, broke my camera lens. GREAT! Actually, not that upset. First of all, it was my fault, second of all, my current one is really disgusting. 
-This post is staying short and sweet! Like the new layout? Hearts were getting pretty cliche. 


So my distractions of the week from this blog:
1. Extremely sad to admit, but: facebook
2. SCHOOL (just started basketball season)
3. Youtube, well the beauty community on youtube, check it out!
4. HSN! Sadly, it's my new addiction. Yet, I haven't ordered anything. 




One more random thing, if you can't tell from this post: I've been off the walls lately. So many thoughts racing around in my head. I toss and turn all night just thinking about everything you could possibly imagine! Focus is definitely not in my vocabulary currently. Help me figure this out!


So lastly, my one wish, people read this stupid blog. I understand why they don't though, well, not really, but I'm lying to make myself feel better. Help me out! 


Really not inspirational, but it's okay. It's much more personal.

Oh gosh, still haven't stopped with my off the wall post but please listen to Mumford & Sons. Definitely one of my new favorite artists. Just bought their new cd "Sigh No More"
Very deep stuff, seriously listen to the lyrics.
Stay Gold!
Isabelle

It's January.

“Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow - that is patience.”

~Author Unknown. 


So, I decided to stay patient. I'm not going to give up everything and just wait, but in fact, go out there and live and hopefully, during all that living, my patience will pay off. It's a new year. I'm definitely starting fresh.