I could be doing these things:
Filling out my scholarship form
Studying
Practicing for my tryouts, which are in a week
BLOGGING!
Taking photographs to decorate my blog and my flickr
Socializing
Changing the world
So yeah, I'm a waste of space at the moment and I'm very tenacious about doing so.
Thanksgiving was amazing, my family is so beautiful, so fun to be around and this holiday helps remind me of that. I have so many blessings to be thankful for, I could bore you for a month talking about them. I finally had a day to say "thank you" for all of them. That day, in itself, is something to be grateful for. This country has so much, I have so much, I can't express enough phrases of gratitude for it all, but one day I hope God understands how appreciative I am. Than again, I'm such a slacker lately!
My birthday is this coming Saturday!
So now, here's the topic: forgetting.
I haven't written for almost 3 weeks, so this might be out of the blue, that I know, but the month of December will hopefully be a creative one! One last thing, can someone please tell me why I want to do anything BUT something productive. Okay, the end of my pointless rambling.
There are so many things that happen in life. So, so, soooo many things. I wish I knew how to handle everything that happens. I wish I knew why you can have the best day in the world, and watch everything crumble the next day. I guess it's just part of the deal, we get to live, we get the chance to make our name in the world, we need to understand that there's always going to be the positive, but then there will be a few negative fragments mixed in. It's like when you get a little piece of the eggshell in the cake batter and can't get it out, you let it be. Sure, it would be nice if it wasn't in there, but you learn to deal with it. You just enjoy how great the cake tastes, instead of worrying about biting on that eggshell. That's life. We get over the negatives, and savor the positives. It's a funny way of working things out. It's just, sometimes it's so hard, especially for me. Balancing the two is difficult, and the older I get, the more problems occur. At the same time though, the more I learn to deal with the problems. Recently, everything was going exceedingly well. I was on cloud nine. Suddenly, everything dropped, it's like God suddenly turned the gravity switch on again. Thank goodness it brought me back to earth, but at the same time, it caused me way to many tears. Surprisingly though, those tears were short lived. I learned to forget. Forget what made me sad, and instead, realize the people trying to make me happy, and the things I have/had that made me happy. Nothing a mistake, it's just a lesson. It happened, you grow from it, you move on. These past weeks, I realized it's time to stop focusing on the lust in life. The gilded things, the gilded people. Instead, find the love. The people who glow inside and out. My friends are the most amazing people in my life. Sometimes, I forget them, try to find new people to replace them. It's so unintelligible of me. So thoughtless. They are there for me in an instant. Letting me cry on their shoulders and laugh at their jokes. They fill the empty spaces completely.
So, sure, bad things happen. They happen to us all. We have to stop sulking, thinking we're the only ones, realize it's a lesson, and FORGET! New things will come, greater things actually. Just wait, I promise. So all of you afraid of the eggshells, STOP! Enjoy your cake, enjoy it fully. You don't even have to share. And when it's gone, just remember, all you have to do it bake a new one. This time, you know something though, you know to watch out for those eggshells.;)
Well I hope you have a wonderful. eggshell free day! And if it's going a little rough, remember I care! Always here to talk as well for whomever reads.
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