"To improve is to change; to be perfect is to change often. "

I've reached a breaking point. (I've always wanted to say that!) But, I honestly have. I figured out that I'm bored with my life. I spend to much time trying to be perfect and in return I just am unhappy. This made me realize two things. 1: I should listen to my father more. 2: Perfect is anything but what it means. Explanation to #1: My father always told me that I don't have to be perfect because it just makes me miserable. He was absolutely right. So,from much experience, listen to your parents or people who have more experience. No matter how much you don't want to listen to them, most likely they're right. I have a very "thick-head" and it takes all of the armed forces to make me see something in an opinion other than my own. sometimes it's a good quality, sometimes it's a very awful quality. Explanation to #2: Being perfect is overrated. Being imperfect is where true happiness is found.The reason why we are here is to all be imperfect. Those who are perfect are crazy. See I try so hard to be perfect and finally I figured out, being perfect is what's keeping me from becoming perfect. When people stop attempting to be perfect that's when they truly become it. So yes, many people are perfect. Not the perfect in a sense where everything you do is right, but a perfect in which you are happy with your life and find yourself to be perfect. It's in trying to be perfect that we forget what living really is. It's now my mission to go back to figuring out what it's like to live. What it's like to feel excitement, pain, happiness, and every single emotion in between. It's time for me to totally stop caring and start taking risks. Say what I feel and do what I know is right. I also ask that you join me. So maybe, together, we can all be perfect, just in an imperfect way.

A serene break.

I sat on the porch and watched the sunset
As the trees swayed in the wind
The sky was swirled with many shades of pastels
As the sun gracefully grinned

Everything was quiet
Something I'm so unaccustomed to
I could hear the sounds of the children's feet
As they run and fade into the blue

The flowers told a story
As their many colors lit up in the sunlight
Clouds were white and the water glistened
As evening slowly turned into night

The skyline shone
The glowing moon landed into its place
As stars started to peak out of a dark navy ocean
And the night owls and morning roosters start their race

Suddenly my peace was interrupted by a painful noise
My body arose from a soft warm bed
I realized it was all a dream of where I wish to be
If only I could experience this in real life and not just in my head

I needed to take a break from my blog posts. Something a bit more entertaining. I want my summers to be like this! I really really do. I wish all of the people who read this (if any) experience at least one night like this. <3 Happy living.

No Title (Priorities)

As you can infer from my title, I am at a loss of creativity. Actually, just for tonight. I'm quite tired but I decided to write anyway. So today I went to mass and my priest's homily was about setting your priorities straight. Most of the time homilies don't make sense to me, but everyone once in a while, a good one comes along. Today I actually sat and reflected on my priorities. Sometimes I feel as if I forget them. Some of us don't have priorities. Some of us have horrific priorities. Then there are the few of us that have all the right priorities in our lives. I don't know what category I fall into. All I know is that I have priorities, whether they be good or bad, they're working for me at the moment. I'm happy with my life and what I'm doing with it. My only problem is that I get to caught up in life that I sometimes forget about all my priorities. That's why I enjoy writing so much, it reminds me of all my priorities. So I ask all of you, remember your priorities, and you'll be good. That's it for tonight. <3

Red lips, white teeth.

Smiling. Boy, does it feel so good. A genuine smile and a hearty laugh makes all of life worthwhile. It's a proven fact that people who laugh louder and smile larger live longer. Why shouldn't they? They have the will to live, meanwhile, the people frowning all day have no reason to. Most people enjoy following trends (guilty) and it seems like frowning is a new trend. It's those who sent new trends that rise above. So be a trend setter and smile. It'll only make you happier and healthier.
Short story time: When I was younger, my father wouldn't let me buy the boots every girl had. He said it's stupid to want to be like everyone else. I didn't understand how crucial those words were until now. So, me being my hyperactive self, had to find another type of boots to keep me satisfied. I found a perfect pair and started wearing them. Of course people looked at me funny at first, but surprisingly, the next year, everyone bought a pair of my boots. What's the point of being like everyone else? If you were in a store and every shirt was the same, would that be your favorite store? Most likely, no. So why do humans have to try to be all the same? It's always bewildered me that someone wants to be exactly like someone else. I've learned (thanks dad) that it's so much more exciting to be different. To take risks, and not give a care about what people say? Ignore those who hate and welcome those who love. I'll write a more extensive blogpost about this in the future, but back to what I started writing about: smiling. Do me a favor, smile, please! Be a trendsetter. Besides, everyone looks beautiful when they smile. <3 Always smile. Always.

The sky was studded with sparkly stars

I know I didn't write yesterday, but again, i was unable to get to a computer so I have not yet broken the promise!
Tonight, my friends and I were sitting in the pool and the sky was so clear. Thousands of little stars were sprinkled like glitter throughout the infinitely deep navy background. My friend tells me a story about how if you wish on the first star you see, you really wish, than it will come true. I don't mean just say your wish and turn away, but you have to concentrate. You have to see your wish come true and want it too more than anything. I was thinking, wishes really do come true. It's all about mind over matter. What i tell people is "if you think it's going to happen then it will." Positive thinking. Stars, 11:11, throwing coins into ponds, those are all just reinforcements to positive thinking. Most of us need a physical occurrence to make us believe. MY father always told me to have a positive outlook in order to be happy. Finally, I'm starting to believe him. If you're negative your whole life, only negative things happen. The more they happen, the more you become sad. If you're positive, positive things happen and the happier and happier you become. So maybe you don't need stars to wish on, but you can still wish. Wish for anything and firmly believe it can come true. Anything is possible.

In the midst of all the tears...I swore I saw a smile.

Oh good! I'm running on track with my blog posts, I am quite proud if I dare to say. So lately life has been like walking in a woods trying to get cell phone service. Like living in New York. Everything changes and sometimes things are up and then in a heartbeat they drop tremendously. It really knocks me around. The unsteadiness of life is so, well, unpredictable. I wake up one morning feeling like a million bucks and then two day later I wake up feeling like the leftovers of a great idea. (I know these comparisons are odd, but they are truly what I feel. Originality is key, as is creativity) Back and forth things in my mind run. Fast in slow my heart beats. A hurricane in my soul and when I reach the eye of the storm I think it's all over and then it starts up all again. Maybe I'm overreacting, or maybe I just can't handle it anymore. I never understand why everything changes so quickly. Just when I become happy, something gradually grows large and engulfs my happiness. (Wow I complain excessively.) I don't mean to complain, I just wish I understood. No one understands though. Honestly, I think it's just all part of God's master plan. I still have that deep hope inside of me that time will run it's course. I once heard this quote "sometimes things need to get worse before they can get any better." I believe that that quote i 100% true. Problems don't just solve themselves right away. Conflicts are what bring people closer and sometimes they need to get worse before anyone can come to an agreement. I keep that in my mind whenever things get bad because I realized that they do get worse before they get better. I really vent too much on this thing. My only wish is that whoever reads this is helped out because I know that when I read people's experiences I realize I'm not alone. Life is beautiful but beauty is often hard to see unless you dig deep. I understand now that I really need to keep moving, like I say in all my blog posts. MY dear friend said "just keep swimming is my new favorite quote." Maybe even in the most innocent childhood movies there are morals. No matter what just keep moving. Let life lie itself. The more you get involved the longer it takes time to heal. Take cover and when the storm is over come out and love like you never have before.

Sit Back and Smell the Flowers.

You want to know something crazy, I haven't smelt a flower in about two years. I haven't appreciated anything in life lately, the beauty of it all. It kills me to know I'm letting all this pass by me. Thank God for photography or I really would be so oblivious to the gorgeous world around me. I guess I just get so caught up in everything. School work, writing, reading, sports, recreational things. Not that any of those things are bad, they are all very vital to my life, but I haven't really set aside any time for myself. I need time to relax. It's not that I don't get breaks, It's that I don't appreciate my breaks when I have them. Now that it's summer, I finally floated in my pool and figured out what a true break feels like. It's lovely. My creative juices also started flowing again. Thank goodness! I was almost going through a creativity block, which wouldn't of done any good considering this new promise I have with my blog and I. Back to the point. I feel that as human beings, we appreciate everything more when we are given time to truly take it in. Some of us, as i very well know, don't have any of that time. But, every once in a while, we get a little break. Don't waste the break doing something you're not going to remember the next day, do something productive. Take in your surroundings and the beauty of it all and start to really enjoy life again. For those of us that do have ample amount of time, don't take it for granted. Take it as a gift and use it to the best of it's ability. You don't have to always "stop and smell the roses," because then they become less special, but every once in a while makes you love them more and more. Same goes with everything else. So give yourself a break, you'll be able to catch up later. I'm sure a break is well deserved and when you're ready, you can go right back to your daily routine.
Happy Break <3

“Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes.”

So the picture imaged above is of my favorite necklace. I rarely take it off just because it helps remind me of many things. I think all of us spend so much time trying to be perfect (well I'm really speaking for myself right now but I know I'm not alone). WE try to do everything 100% and get so angry when we fail. Most of us probably even do it with no intention too. It's a wonderful thing to aim to be perfect. No one is perfect though. (You've heard that one before!) No matter how hard we try , none of us are perfect. I could give you a million examples. We may get jealous of people who we think are perfect, but they truly aren't. The less perfect you are, the more perfect you become. God never wanted us to be perfect. If we all were, we'd be just like robots. God wanted us to have faults and find our way by experiencing things. Mistakes are made to help us learn. If we never make mistakes, how are we ever going to learn? I get so down on myself when I make a mistake, but I always have my necklace to remind me, that this mistake wasn't so bad. It's in the past and it's a discovery. School isn't where we learn, contrary to many beliefs. It's just a place to teach us what has already been established. It's in life that we learn. Real life experiences. We learn through hardships and mess ups. We can make them a positive thing, if we try real hard. If we truly do care, it's possible that we might not make the same mistake again. We just need to be retentive and remember our faults and not let them shine through our good qualities. In the end, the good times in life are earned by learning. Learning what's truly important: how to overcome our mistakes and remember to never make them again.

Walking Into Walls.

Ah yes, just what I have been doing lately. (See title) Okay, so not literally walking into walls, but in my mind I have been. It hurts. It has yet to take a physical toll on me, but I shouldn't be quick to speak. It's just like I've hit a million dead ends. Maybe it's because my outlook on life has been so negative, but honestly, I just don't understand. I think it's God's plan to put so many walls for us to clumsily walk into. After a little while, we figure out how to put ourselves in reverse. All of us need to be put into reverse once in a while. Back pedal. Figure out what leads us to walk into these hard, cold, emotionally draining walls. Switching over to a more positive outlook, these walls could actually be helpful. They're filters that help us weed out the things that make us crazy. The things that turn us inside out and make us feel like there is no reason to be happy, but there is. There is every reason to be happy. We're alive. That's good enough. So when you hit a wall, just step back. Figure out what drove you to hit that wall and GET OVER IT. Forget it. You're too amazing to have your time, and precious life, wasted by something so inconsequential. Hit the brakes and reverse. Think.
Best wishes for when you happen to hit a wall, hope it's as pain free as possible <3
(Title has some relevance to post. YES!)

Time slowly drips by.

Ok, so I have failed myself yet again. It is currently 12:09 am. That means i have technically missed two days of writing but I'm only counting it as one. I do have a very reasonable excuse for not writing last night, I was at a place where a computer was inaccessible. In this world it's hard to believe that could be possible, but the computer was broken. Now worries. So I guess now I have to make up for two days. Well my titles are always irrelevant to what I write about, but hey, creativity is a gift.
So in this post I'm writing about ignorance. Sure, people seem to find ignorance a problem, and then there are some that see "ignorance as bliss." That's me. As I've written before, I'm not ignorant in a bad way, I just ignore the parts of life that bring me down. It's better that way. I've figured out, over time, to stop caring about everything. Stop wasting your time caring about what people think, what they do, what you own, and so on. That only brings you down, instead care about the important things in life. The people you love, the things you love to do, and everything in between. We get so caught up in the opinions and actions of others when in reality, it only matters about what we think in feel. I've discovered this early, and I'm most grateful because it's gotten me through many challenging times. Maybe I'm not the happiness person (at the moment) but I have so much time to be. I'm happy though, and that's because I don't care about the unimportant things, only the imperative things. When I forget this, I get really down on myself, and then I realize how brainless I am. So love to the best of your ability and be as careless and kindergarteners. Forget the bad a cherish the good.
Never close your heart. <3

As I Watched Their Feet Disappear..

Today was a day filled with no inspiration. Actually, there was a lot of things present that could inspire me, I just couldn't put them into words. Before I start off with my usual ramble about a random topic, I just want to say how proud I am of myself. (Yes, I know, quite strange to be gloating so much.) I'm proud because I haven't broken my promise about writing daily. Of course, it's only the second day, but hey, it's a start! I'm usually a terrible promise keeper. Not because I don't like to keep promises, but because things make it almost impossible to keep some promises. This one I'm definitely going to try to keep. Anyways, enough with my pointless self-reflection, time for my topic. Endings.
Oh Boy! Aren't endings terrifying? Sometimes you wish and wish for them to come and then when they do, they hit you square in the face, beyond unexpected. Be careful what you wish for because wishes really do come true. (Most of the time it's the negative wishes that do come true, but then again, that's just from my negative observations.) I think the human mind and heart takes so many things for granted, and then when they're gone, we don't know what to do with ourselves. I wish I could always remember what I write because it would truly help me throughout life, instead, I push my writings to the back of my head and just become the same ignorant person that makes bad choices. I never learn. Going off topic again. Back on track, ending really are frightening. I can't imagine all the great things in my life at the moment coming to an end. It's so depressing to even imagine it. All the things I love, all the people I love, all of those things ending. It worries me inside. I even cry thinking about it sometimes, but then I realize, what's the point of wasting my time that I could be spending with them, worrying about when they are going to leave? You have to appreciate what you have when you have it, not after it's gone. It really is worth it in the end, to have lived your good moments well than rather to have forgotten about them because you worried too much about loosing them. So look at your life and the good things you have in it. Understand that they will have to come to an end, but instead of getting upset, cherish them while you can.
Stay in the moment. <3

Making Up for Lost Time, or Should I Say, Lost Writing.

I had to do a project on the book "The Outsiders." What a beautiful book i must say. If you read it, I'm sure you can identify the themes in these photos, if not, enjoy!

“Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realize you haven't fallen asleep yet”

Stress. The best explanation for my life lately. Finals. Another very descriptive word. I'm really bad at keeping promises I guess. Now it's not like I promised anyone I'd write everyday, but i promised myself. I sadly neglected that promise the day after i made it! So much has been going on in my life, probably in everyone's lives these days, but summer is almost here. Summer is what I dream about the most. The glistening sun, smooth waves, grainy sand, sleeping in, late nights, beautiful sunsets, lasting memories, and free time. It seems that or the past few weeks, every time my head hits my soft pillow, dreams of summer drift into my mind. One week. That's when my dreams finally become reality. Maybe I can keep some promises. Write some more. This year, well school year, has been quite the interesting one. I tell everyone it has been the "longest shortest year." It seems like it flew by, but really, so many events occurred. I'm glad I get to finally burry the year behind me. Then again, you can really never delete what has already been done. So, I'll take the good with the bad, and remember this year. It did have its golden moments and I couldn't be more grateful for them. In the end, I'm just happy it's all over. Next September, I'm starting with a clean slate, with myself and with other people. I'm not the one to hold grudges because I know how much it hurts to not be forgiven. Anyways, in this long ramble of nonsense, I've tried to get my point across of how I didn't forget about my writing, I've just had obstacles getting in my way of doing what I've truly loved.
Happy Summer. <3