In the midst of all the tears...I swore I saw a smile.

Oh good! I'm running on track with my blog posts, I am quite proud if I dare to say. So lately life has been like walking in a woods trying to get cell phone service. Like living in New York. Everything changes and sometimes things are up and then in a heartbeat they drop tremendously. It really knocks me around. The unsteadiness of life is so, well, unpredictable. I wake up one morning feeling like a million bucks and then two day later I wake up feeling like the leftovers of a great idea. (I know these comparisons are odd, but they are truly what I feel. Originality is key, as is creativity) Back and forth things in my mind run. Fast in slow my heart beats. A hurricane in my soul and when I reach the eye of the storm I think it's all over and then it starts up all again. Maybe I'm overreacting, or maybe I just can't handle it anymore. I never understand why everything changes so quickly. Just when I become happy, something gradually grows large and engulfs my happiness. (Wow I complain excessively.) I don't mean to complain, I just wish I understood. No one understands though. Honestly, I think it's just all part of God's master plan. I still have that deep hope inside of me that time will run it's course. I once heard this quote "sometimes things need to get worse before they can get any better." I believe that that quote i 100% true. Problems don't just solve themselves right away. Conflicts are what bring people closer and sometimes they need to get worse before anyone can come to an agreement. I keep that in my mind whenever things get bad because I realized that they do get worse before they get better. I really vent too much on this thing. My only wish is that whoever reads this is helped out because I know that when I read people's experiences I realize I'm not alone. Life is beautiful but beauty is often hard to see unless you dig deep. I understand now that I really need to keep moving, like I say in all my blog posts. MY dear friend said "just keep swimming is my new favorite quote." Maybe even in the most innocent childhood movies there are morals. No matter what just keep moving. Let life lie itself. The more you get involved the longer it takes time to heal. Take cover and when the storm is over come out and love like you never have before.