Hold true friends with both of your hands.

Before I start, I dedicate this post to my friends. I love them more than anything in the world.
I'm a person who pushes people away. I don't push them away because I want to, but I do it because I love them. I push those I love away. It's terrible, I know, but I do it to risk being hurt. I do it so that I don't have to risk loosing those I love. I guess it started when my parents got divorced. I discovered that if I pushed those I love away, it didn't hurt so much when they really left. It's taken me some time to figure out I was wrong. I was wrong to push those people away because they are some of the best people on this earth. I love them to heaven and back. The thing is, they don't know it. I wish they did. I wish I could tell all of them how much they mean to me, but I'm not to talented at expressing things with my words. So, I decided to write it. If you're like me, I beg you to not push people away. It only hurts you, just as it's hurt me. Sometimes you loose people, but sometimes God realizes just how much you need them and lets them stay. Loosing people is part of life. Not having anybody to loose is sad. I regret all the times I've ever pushed someone away. Now I know that I have to be a little more open to be genuinely happy. All types of people. Variety. Life is so great and to not have anyone to spend it with is a waste. It reminds me of this quote: "Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art.... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival." (C.S. Lewis) Maybe we can live life without people to share it with, but it sure as hell won't be worth living. Please don't push people away. Love with open arms. And once in a while, tell your friends how much you love them because I assure you, you won't have to lose them. Don't be afraid of losing because it will help you remember how great that person you lost was.
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