September already isn't it? That's absolutely astonishing. A whole summer gone. Now just becoming a fragment of my memory. Whether or not it's a good memory I have yet to decide. I always complain to everyone how boring my summer was, but now that I look back on it all, it honestly wasn't that bad. I had good moments and of course bad. But mostly, I spent my summer smiling and that's all that matters to me. So what, it wasn't a very captivating summer and if I ever wrote a book about it, my parents would be the only people to buy copies, but I feel as if I changed this summer. Maybe I changed because of this blog, but I truly feel, on a whole, that I became a different person. Sure, I still have my crisp sarcasm but I've learned how to control my tongue. I see things positively, whereas before I always just frowned. I'm finally appreciating everything I have, and not wanting what everyone else has. (Though, there are a few exceptions, I'm working on it) I've decided that everything isn't worth being sad or thinking I'm sad. I've come to understand that being happy is so much more rewarding.
Last night I was just thinking how unhappy I am, and today I realized, I'm really not. Okay, I know that's a little bipolar, but at least I'm thinking. My friends are happy. I smile so much and the person I have feelings for, though they may not feel it back, they're happy. That means the world to me. Knowing all the people I love are smiling. that makes me smile more than anything. I know that's extremely "cheesy" but it's actually the truth. These people complete my life and to see them smile, whether it be a little smile or a huge one makes me so happy. I don't know if you if you know of the tradition of wishing at 11:11, but I know of it and usually wish. Today was different, today I just smiled, I smiled because I have no need to wish. Sure, I can wish for something, but it's a selfish something and at the moment there's no need to dilute my happiness with selfishness.
I guess this summer was productive. I guess I changed and I hope I stay this way. I couldn't be more grateful for all that I have. Next time 11:11 comes around I'm going to wish for all of you, that you may be able to smile the next time you have an opportunity to make a wish. That you may be able to smile because the people around you are smiling. Please just be happy, it's so much less a waste of time. Happy September<3
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